与其说你不适合我
倒不如说我不刚你
你要的我始终给不到你
更不用说是最好的
对不起
我带不了给好的

友情

我只能说
我对这段友情
感到失望
也许是我自己错
没足够的时间陪你（你们）
haizzzzzzz.........

对不起

我又失败了
又再次得令你失望
对不起
我总是给不到你最好的
总是给不到你想要的
总是让你担心
对不起
别人给到你的
我给不到

完了

因为完全对你投入了感情
我开始对一些无谓的琐碎事而不开心
偶尔会吃下干醋
会突然对你冷冷的
虽然我知道这样是不对
可是我却无法控制
这样的我
我一点都不喜欢
我也真清楚知道
如果我再继续这样下去
我会完全的在你的世界里被淘汰掉
完了

番薯

我就是爱叫你番薯!!!
你越不理我,
我就越要叫你番薯!!! XP

LOST

Totally lost now... And I do not know what should  I do... Honestly... I'm not so happy at home since the day I went to university... Every time I come back home, I can't feel the sense of harmony at home anymore as before... What I just get is tons of mumbling and nagging... Although I understand those words are just a sign of caring... But don't you think that those words are too sharp for me and tend to make my tiny little balloon heart burst??? but as usual, I try to be patient and do not fight back... Till yesterday morning... I do not know what I'm doing and i tend to fight back... As conclusion, I get that it is worse when you fight back... This is because worse come to worst she will put you in a difficult situation... She make me not to go back to my campus for my briefings tonight... Besides, she is telling me to quit from the general committee team... You make me a person who always broke my promise to others... I do not know why is she so cruel to make me give my things... But I'm sorry... I had grown up... I know what I'm doing... I will not let myself to lost my last chance... But I will try to make everything perfect even though everything I do are not good  and they are the worst in the world for you...



PS: Just to tell you that I have my own limit and my own opinion too... Don't claim that everything you call me to do is always right... Humans do always have short coming and aren't perfect... So do not ruin my self confidence, make my fragile heart broke into zillions pieces and try to lower my self esteem as well... It will affect my performance in studies... I beg you... Please do do so... I will highly appreciate you if you do so...

我的你

你,
很奇怪...
对我从来不过问...
刚才因为忙,
没回到你信...
你发凶了...
问我是否在乎你的存在???
你说你不明白我...
不了解我...
不懂我在想什么...
那试问,
我感冒,我病了...
你懂吗???
我熬夜...
你懂吗???
你曾叮咛我睡觉盖被吗???
连简单的一句晚安,
也是我要求你说你才说的...
说难听些...
我死了你都不懂...
其实,
我想的只是很简单...
那就是只要你对我过问...
关心我...
那我就满足了...
至于我是否在乎你....
你试想,
如果我不在乎你,
我会那么关心你吗???
你生气我会哄你吗???
你发凶我会让你吗???
我无言......
看回你和她的过去...
我还真的傻...
因为我真的很羡慕她...
羡慕她,
为何能得到你这么多的关心...
毕竟我对你付出的关心,
不少过你给于她的关心....
也对...
有付出不一定有回报...
也可能是我比她会照顾自己....
所以你从不担心吧...
只能这样...
安慰自己...

Trustworthy

I don't mind that you don't trust me.....
But this doesn't mean that I'm a numb person...
I'm a normal human being who needs trustworthy...
I'm a normal human being who has feelings in my heart....
Many things that people misunderstood about me...
Just that...
I chose that not to voice out...
Sometimes....
I do tell lies...
But this doesn't mean that I'm a liar...
I tell lies for self-protection....
I tell lies just not to hurt your feelings...
I tell lies just to pretend that I dun know anything....
I tell lies just to escape from reality...
I tell lies because I'm scared....
I'm fear....
It's just a white lie...
That I would claim it as...

你们给我的生命

孩子
是父母的结合体
孩子
也因为父母
而有了生命
我的生命
是你们给我的
是否因为你们给了我生命
我才要按着你们所定的路走
是否因为你们给了我生命
你们才限定我的自由
是否你们给了我生命
我就没权力去选择
我知道有些事情
你们不让我做是为了我好
不过我觉得只要我能把所有的东西都兼顾好
这些小事根本不算什么
我想经一事长一智
可是你们却偏偏反对
把我骂得狗血淋头
你骂我我解释
你说我顶嘴
我不出声
你说我不把你们放在眼里
那我该如何是好
我知道18岁并不大
有很多东西还没经历
还没学
但我会想吖
只想你们信任我
相信我
让我出去闯闯
这样就够了
我会平安无事得回来
就算受伤
也是小伤
因为我珍惜你们给我的
无价生命

It's Me Today

Get up from bed...

Get a good scold from my mum...

That's not I wish 2 get...

I just wanna enjoy my semester break...

A calm semester break without parents nagging me...

But things always do not happened as what you wish....

I always understand that parents nagged me because they really care me....

But sometimes I think that that is an act of over protection...

As what happen to princesses....

They have thousands of servants who are always ready to serve them and treat them...

They always get things that they wanted badly...

Although they get everything that they wanted and needed...

They can't get the most important thing in their life...

Their happiness...

Their freedom....

Their soul....

Every people of the world just get to see their luxuries life...

But how many people in this world will ever think of their feelings...

Me....

I have a life as a princess...

But this is not what I want....

I want freedom...

Freedom is the only thing that can gain back my soul and happiness...

Now I get back a little bit of freedom...

But I'm satisfy...

At least I get a bit....

A bit...

That bit that give me satisfactions....

放弃

我放弃了
但不后悔
放弃你
使我的视线辽阔了
看到的东西也多了
放弃你
让我找到珍惜我的
虽放弃
但还是会怀念
谢谢你